I lost my mother back in 1989. I was already going through a divorce, it was just a tough year. I think about my mother from time to time and the grandchildren she never got to know. But, time is the great healer and eventually it does get better. Although i'm sure now you're feeling that you'll never get through it. You will.
Prayer is wonderful for healing because it will reaffirms your faith. Also keep going fishing. I'm sure that's what your mom would have wanted.
By the way great report.